I talk...and I talk a lot. I talk to anything that moves, and I can talk about anything. I also fear that I am one of those people that others make direct escape routes from to avoid talking to. Typing that out makes me laugh.
I can take care of myself, I don't need someone to pay my bills, or to take my car to get the oil changed, to make me dinner, it would be amazing of course, but I don't NEED it. I might need someone to open jars and reach things on high shelves for me. Plus pretty sure you can hire people for that crap. Since following through with my plans to divorce I have found that I miss a lot of the memories I had with him. He is a completely different person entirely. He says that he isn't but he has changed more then he will ever realize.
There is a comfort of having a live in best friend whom you can share everything with. Who if you are bored you can simply walk into the next room and there they are. Late movie nights, date nights, someone you can stay up late with and talk to. Those are the things I miss. I don't miss him. I miss the memories of the man he use to be, the fun we had, the beautiful things are what I miss most.
Two months ago I was still crying and sad, six months ago, if you told me that my relationship was over with my husband I would have thought you were crazy. Today I am ok with moving forward, the pain isn't there, the physical aching in my heart for my best friend has diminished. I don't know if God is just protecting my heart and shielding me from the heartache I should be feeling or what, but I can wake up every morning and be excited for my day, and do not give him a thought at all. He broke me 9 months ago, he brought me down to such a low point, but I realized something, even the prettiest woman will feel insecure loving the wrong man. Pain knows no boundaries, it invades everyone regardless of social status, looks, race, religion.
"The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies."
So I will wake up and shine and hold those that I love close.
1 Corinthians 16:14
XOXO
Nicole
Two months ago I was still crying and sad, six months ago, if you told me that my relationship was over with my husband I would have thought you were crazy. Today I am ok with moving forward, the pain isn't there, the physical aching in my heart for my best friend has diminished. I don't know if God is just protecting my heart and shielding me from the heartache I should be feeling or what, but I can wake up every morning and be excited for my day, and do not give him a thought at all. He broke me 9 months ago, he brought me down to such a low point, but I realized something, even the prettiest woman will feel insecure loving the wrong man. Pain knows no boundaries, it invades everyone regardless of social status, looks, race, religion.
"The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies."
So I will wake up and shine and hold those that I love close.
1 Corinthians 16:14
XOXO
Nicole
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